in the state off.... myself

this is the stupidest moment in my life. i hate myself like hell. everything seems so wrong, n even worst i would ever can change.that is me.always doing wrong this n never gonna learn form it.my life is very miserable,in fact I'm not helping myself to put it right.take things for granted n this is what happen.i hate myself like ****. i dont know i never learn,never do right thing.my words stumble,my actions were stupid.how i'm going to face this life like this. i'm totally lost...............