the last words
tetiba saya tersedar saya terlalu banyak cakap. so, better senyap sementara.nak exam,nak focus on assignments. but, i have few last words before i keep quiet. di bwh ada poem yang sy rasakan indah. org bagi komen marvellous,nice one,masyaAllah etc. mmg menarik pun,so bacalah dengan hati terbuka. fikir2kan kenapa penulis mula dengan potongan ayat ini...(sy ambil w/o permission,so better refer to his blog- http://www.ikhone.co.uk/ . letak komen kat situ. i think his blog is so good.i dont know him at all,but, what i can tell you, he's a good Muslim. if u need quran when watching fitna, u may need dictionary when u read his blog. ok,enough promoting his blog,because i think it is better to read something useful like his blg rather than mine.
sila,sila baca his poem and komen kat blog dia.jgn komen kat cni coz tak dpt manfaat apa2 coz si penulis x baca blog saya nih.
"Ana cadangkan enta mulakan dengan menulis dlm blog. Kalau dpt dibawa kepada mesej memerhati alam --> mencari-cari kebenaran --> creator of the universe --> Islam, it would be a wonderful tool for dakwah to non-Muslims and Muslims alike."
The farmer and his wife
I heard stories from afar
tales of villages on mountains
and moving nomads in the desert
walking in blinding glare and furious heat
from one oasis to another
praising God when there is water
I heard of a farmer and his wife
going about their daily lives
growing crops of many sorts
of which species I know not
but when a stranger came to visit
he felt so honoured he had to admit
for such is kindness and purity
upholding the sunnah of the Nabi
with just the wisdom of a simple life
a longing soul finds his way to light
I heard of teachers in foreign lands
transmitting wisdom into hearts of men
voluminous but not in pages
preserved knowledge throughout the ages
with high adab and good manners
putting things rightly at their places
with tested methods step by step
honing spirits to its perfection
Now, all these tales seem so distant
from the life I live so insistent
for they are rich in simplicity
far away form disturbances of the city
the reality I face day to day
when high ideal is a dream away
when error and confusion is overwhelming
I heighten my gaze to look for an ending
I strained my eyes perhaps I can see
digging in books of philosophy, I'm no al-Ghazzali
whose mind was sharp and accurate
waking up at night to bow his head
with a heart filled with sincerity
yearning nothing but his Lord's certainty
And so I went against the flow
paddling upstream I had to go
In mathematics I found beauty
of which to Him I attribute them to.
But therein also I can find
some subtleties that blow my mind
from the oneness of singularity
to the infinity of continuity
Is this what Ibn Sina had in mind
the question how come many from the one?
Although far-fetched it may seem
or useless as a utilitarian may deem
it is the very language the modern world speaks
understand through it a modern man seeks
to explain the mechanisms of the universe
in dire need to find meaning to existence
settling in the comforts of its illusive certainty
that is nothing but biased to its godless philosophy
camouflaged by that which we call science
made attractive by things we call technology
Should we be so quick to call it sunnatullah
when in reality it is no more than an abstraction
of a mind absent of Allah?
Should we be so quick to use it as arguments for our Religion
while being heedless of its traps and pitfalls so well hidden?
Who amongst us is well equipped
to face this challenge direly needed?
Maybe I should just be
like the farmer hidden in mist
growing crops by the Mercy of my Lord
and give thanks to Him for Grace bestowed
alien are the thoughts of modern man
clueless of their problems and affliction
I know my Lord within my capacity
without the confusion of the city
I strive my best to be His servant
in hope for Paradise when I return
to Him who owns eternity
to dwell in peace everlastingly
But such is not my place
who am I to question?
The world is but a test
it is not a burden
too heavy for an unfortunate soul
for Allah has promised it to be so.
And so I pray that the whole Community
shall once again stand up in unity
From this Ummah I pray I am one of those
who will be saved from eternal loss
therefore my place I have to find
before the trumpet blows the end of time
and so my self I have to know
to choose which road I have to follow
Oh Allah grant me the sight
to see Your real guiding light.
saya nak komen gak poem dia nih,wlpn dia x baca. sebab poem nih sgtlah menarik utk dikomen. saya guna 5 deria kita utk menggambarkan mcm mana sy menerima poem ini. saya dpt melihat poem ini berwarna-warni pada awalnya, tetapi semakin gelap apabila the colours bercampur-campur. last sekali nampak hitam je. dan peom in terasa seperti dark choc sebab ia sedap tapi pahit. ada rasa mint utk mengejutkan minda yang terlena. but,overall sedap la kan. poem ini berbau coffee-menyegarkan sesiapa yang terleka.but, kadang2 memeningkan kepala. bila baca poem ni terasa seperti berjalan di atas batu yang licin mcm kat waterfall ke,kat laut ke.kena hati2.kdg2 boleh jatuh dan terasa sakitnya.the sounds? hurm... instrumental,mcm kiroro nyer hasil tgn. awal yang tenang dan menjadi semakin menarik bila ditengah2,suspens, sinis dan sarcastic. dan bila di hujungnya, ada end yang singkat tapi penuh bermakna.
hehehe. komen sy ini sure semua tak faham.kalau masuk dlm literature,sure fail. tak, sebenarnya bagi sy poem ini sgt sinis. bukan poem yang membangkitkan semangat tetapi menyedarkan kita ttg sesuatu. malah, if tak keterlaluan sy katakan penulis in the state of confusion,need a help of clarification and explanation.he's in the hard situation-dreaming about somethng which never be reality. huhu.senangnyer ckp,harap dia x baca-of course dia takkan baca-apa2 pun sy x tahu siapa dia,dan atas reason apa dia menulis. if nak jadi deconstructive-kena kenal background penulis. so,jgn ambil pusing apa yg sy tulis.baca sendiri his blog and nilai sendiri. sy rasa dia blh jadi pemikir islam terkemuka sebab nampaknya dia ini suka sgt berfikir.fikir dlm2.
ok sekrang kita masuk bab sy plak. sy ini suka bercakap,so sekarang sy nak senyap. sebab sy rase dah byk sgt hati2 org yang sy lukai dan byk sgt perkara2 yang sgt yg sy sebut meng'annoyed'kan ppl around me. selalu jump into argument w/o thinking its consequences. teman sy berkata'ckplah sesuka hati, just bear in mind, jgn emotional. please be rational. if rasa apa ynag nak dickpkan itu dtg dr emosi,better senyap je.' bagus juga nasihat dia. ok, sy akan berhati-hati selepas ini.
tapi, nak kongsi ttg berfikir guna emosi dan berckp guna emosi ini. beberapa hari lepas, ade la seorg ex-flatmate sy tegur kata my music is too loud n dia minta perlahankan. sy pun naik marah la, coz depan saya tu,ada 2 org tgh bersembang dengan kuatnya,dlm bahasa mereka, dan ada seorg mamat lagi,tgh ckp dgn phone dgn selambanya-dlm bahasa yg tak difahami. dan saya ini, duduk punyalah jauh dengan dia,pakai headphone,which was under my scarf.apalah yang bising sgt.n for God sake, sy dgr nasyid ok-bukan music rock mcm the rasmus ke apa. tetiba sy sedar, kenapalah sy marah sgt. adakah sebab dia tu gay/bi or mmg sy marah sebab tindakan dia yg x rasional itu. sy fikir2 if dia tu straight dan saya x kenal pun, adakah sy akan marah?hurm...sy ni discriminate ppl ke? logic je sy tak suka dia personally,but, taken into account who he is, sy bertindak kurang waras sket.maybe sy takkan marah sgt if dia tu org biasa2 saja. my frens said dia saja nak tegur coz sy x layan dia. hah!x perlu kot... nak bercakap ngan saya? atas dasar dia penah jadi flatmate sy? hurm.. xperlu, x perlu...apa2 pun sy nilai balik lepas tu. jgn judge org macam tu. mana tahu esok lusa dia jadi muslim yang baik.kita tak tahu baik buruk org in the end.sila ingat hadis 4,siti! ttg sufiah juga, semua org kena ingat, kita sebagai muslim x baik menyebarkan aib org.we never know someday,kita pun akan buat slh,dan harap org betulkan kita instead spread the news ttg kesalahan kita. so, ingat tu kawan-kawan, Allah nilai kita dari segi ketaqwaan bukan dengan banyaknya amalan yang kita lakukan. ikhlas-itu yang paling penting.
dan satu lagi,sorry blog,entri kali ni pjg sket. my fren dah clash n she's happy now. sy happy jugak utk dia. sy bukan happy sebab dia clash, dan sy bukan happy sebab dia happy, sy happy coz dia dah jumpa perkara yang lebih penting dari itu semua. dia dah ada prinsip dan dah ada satu paradigma baru dlm hidup dia. malah, da sudah meletakkan prioriti yang sy rasakan sgt berani dlm menjalani hidupnya sehari-hari. sy doakan dia istiqamah. be in the r/s mmg indah-wlpn sy x penah rase.tapi, sy amati, if x best,takde la semua org nak in the r/s kan? cinta itu indah n sy x salahkan cinta. cuma, sy rasakan dlm hidup kita ada sesuatu yang lebih indah dan lebih bermakna- keimanan pada Allah. best nya hanya org yang merasainya boleh nilai sendiri. x percaya? sila cuba sendiri.x tahu mcm mana? cuba tanya kwn2,sahabat handai dan org2 yang kalian rase blh bantu.buku2 pun byk. if ade islamic soc-silalah sertai-byk benefit drnya. kalu ada khutbah jumaat kat tmpt anda,silalah dgr.best tau... kat malaysia tak dpt coz masjid penuh sgt nagn org lelaki...
if xde kat tmpt anda,meh dtg warwick yg indah permai nih. solat jumaat start kul 1.20pm. dtg la awal sket utk bertemu sisters yg superduper best kat cni. if brothers-blh la jumpa brothers. diorg pun best jugak kot.sekarang jadikan prayer hall for everythng,termasuk untuk riadhah-main long jump and kriket. sy personally x setuju-but, i thnk they have their own reason for that. nak msk kena ada card,but blh je ketuk2 then,org akan let u in. enuf promoting our prayer hall. cop,ada library yang best gak.byk buka2 arab yg x leh nak baca coz x reti nak baca bahasa arab.rugi kan? selalu duduk2 sambil baca riyadhus salihin suatu ketika dulu, masa tidak sibuk.harap boleh buat lagi next time.maybe after exam. haaa... nostalgic...
tetiba ingat nadiah-nape dia ni significant sgt dlm hidup sy-coz mase sy mula2 smpi warwick,sy terpisah ngan rakan2 bank yg lain. ale,ale jumpe nadiah.masa tu sy ni punyalah teruk coz x bawak compass dan x pakai jam(sy mmg x suka pakai jam).biasa refer to my hp which mase tu x bwk juga. great,how em gonna pray? tgk2 cuaca kat luar seperti sy buat kat malaysia,tgk matahari nak tahu kiblat,great,ini kat uk lah. n mase tu autumn season.mane la ade matahari sgt.then, ijtihad hati. alhamdulillah the nx day,jumpa nadiah.so,dialah teman smpi ke hari ini. hang out dgn dia and other bruneians. kenal bruneians dulu b4 malaysians. gi notts mase first week pun ngan nad ke rumah atul. sekarang dah x inagt dah mane tmpt yg dilawati mase dtg ke notts lepas2 tu.mcm 2 diff world je.but, after all it was a great experience. even tho,smpi skrg still xde jam tangan lagi.dan dia buat sociology-sy suka sgt sociology tapi x suka exam dia. double cdt napa sy selalu mention nama dia.
last sekali,semalam sy minta marjan cerita sket psl fizik lepas lama x sembang psl fizik. ada 3 alat menarik utk tahu sakit kat mana w/o bedah- melalui x-tray, ct scan n satu lagi x ingat nama dia.but,plg cool lah antara byk2 tu. doc akan masukkan radioactive ke dlm salur darah or salur limfa, then , check melalui computer. ada screening kat our body utk tahu apa yg goes wrong. so cool!!! n marjan kata bahaya dia samalah probability nak accident kat jln raya i.e tak le bahaya sgt. menarik kan? but, of course le mahal. satu lagi ttg invisible cloth-dah capai satu tahap boleh tembusi infra red.she said if boleh tembusi vsisible light,then, berjayalah project tu. won't it be so cool? i hope i can have one sebab best lah jd invisible.teruatama di kala tak mahu jumpa orang-serabutlah. what i can do now is x pakai spec, so i cant see ppl face,hehehe,tak le serabut sgt jadinya. blh jalan menonong je.
ok,i better stop now. sorry panjang sgt,siti. nak lepas semua spy x perlu tulis2 lagi.
cop satu lagi...
enuf siti
saya rindu abah...
sangat2
sila,sila baca his poem and komen kat blog dia.jgn komen kat cni coz tak dpt manfaat apa2 coz si penulis x baca blog saya nih.
"Ana cadangkan enta mulakan dengan menulis dlm blog. Kalau dpt dibawa kepada mesej memerhati alam --> mencari-cari kebenaran --> creator of the universe --> Islam, it would be a wonderful tool for dakwah to non-Muslims and Muslims alike."
The farmer and his wife
I heard stories from afar
tales of villages on mountains
and moving nomads in the desert
walking in blinding glare and furious heat
from one oasis to another
praising God when there is water
I heard of a farmer and his wife
going about their daily lives
growing crops of many sorts
of which species I know not
but when a stranger came to visit
he felt so honoured he had to admit
for such is kindness and purity
upholding the sunnah of the Nabi
with just the wisdom of a simple life
a longing soul finds his way to light
I heard of teachers in foreign lands
transmitting wisdom into hearts of men
voluminous but not in pages
preserved knowledge throughout the ages
with high adab and good manners
putting things rightly at their places
with tested methods step by step
honing spirits to its perfection
Now, all these tales seem so distant
from the life I live so insistent
for they are rich in simplicity
far away form disturbances of the city
the reality I face day to day
when high ideal is a dream away
when error and confusion is overwhelming
I heighten my gaze to look for an ending
I strained my eyes perhaps I can see
digging in books of philosophy, I'm no al-Ghazzali
whose mind was sharp and accurate
waking up at night to bow his head
with a heart filled with sincerity
yearning nothing but his Lord's certainty
And so I went against the flow
paddling upstream I had to go
In mathematics I found beauty
of which to Him I attribute them to.
But therein also I can find
some subtleties that blow my mind
from the oneness of singularity
to the infinity of continuity
Is this what Ibn Sina had in mind
the question how come many from the one?
Although far-fetched it may seem
or useless as a utilitarian may deem
it is the very language the modern world speaks
understand through it a modern man seeks
to explain the mechanisms of the universe
in dire need to find meaning to existence
settling in the comforts of its illusive certainty
that is nothing but biased to its godless philosophy
camouflaged by that which we call science
made attractive by things we call technology
Should we be so quick to call it sunnatullah
when in reality it is no more than an abstraction
of a mind absent of Allah?
Should we be so quick to use it as arguments for our Religion
while being heedless of its traps and pitfalls so well hidden?
Who amongst us is well equipped
to face this challenge direly needed?
Maybe I should just be
like the farmer hidden in mist
growing crops by the Mercy of my Lord
and give thanks to Him for Grace bestowed
alien are the thoughts of modern man
clueless of their problems and affliction
I know my Lord within my capacity
without the confusion of the city
I strive my best to be His servant
in hope for Paradise when I return
to Him who owns eternity
to dwell in peace everlastingly
But such is not my place
who am I to question?
The world is but a test
it is not a burden
too heavy for an unfortunate soul
for Allah has promised it to be so.
And so I pray that the whole Community
shall once again stand up in unity
From this Ummah I pray I am one of those
who will be saved from eternal loss
therefore my place I have to find
before the trumpet blows the end of time
and so my self I have to know
to choose which road I have to follow
Oh Allah grant me the sight
to see Your real guiding light.
saya nak komen gak poem dia nih,wlpn dia x baca. sebab poem nih sgtlah menarik utk dikomen. saya guna 5 deria kita utk menggambarkan mcm mana sy menerima poem ini. saya dpt melihat poem ini berwarna-warni pada awalnya, tetapi semakin gelap apabila the colours bercampur-campur. last sekali nampak hitam je. dan peom in terasa seperti dark choc sebab ia sedap tapi pahit. ada rasa mint utk mengejutkan minda yang terlena. but,overall sedap la kan. poem ini berbau coffee-menyegarkan sesiapa yang terleka.but, kadang2 memeningkan kepala. bila baca poem ni terasa seperti berjalan di atas batu yang licin mcm kat waterfall ke,kat laut ke.kena hati2.kdg2 boleh jatuh dan terasa sakitnya.the sounds? hurm... instrumental,mcm kiroro nyer hasil tgn. awal yang tenang dan menjadi semakin menarik bila ditengah2,suspens, sinis dan sarcastic. dan bila di hujungnya, ada end yang singkat tapi penuh bermakna.
hehehe. komen sy ini sure semua tak faham.kalau masuk dlm literature,sure fail. tak, sebenarnya bagi sy poem ini sgt sinis. bukan poem yang membangkitkan semangat tetapi menyedarkan kita ttg sesuatu. malah, if tak keterlaluan sy katakan penulis in the state of confusion,need a help of clarification and explanation.he's in the hard situation-dreaming about somethng which never be reality. huhu.senangnyer ckp,harap dia x baca-of course dia takkan baca-apa2 pun sy x tahu siapa dia,dan atas reason apa dia menulis. if nak jadi deconstructive-kena kenal background penulis. so,jgn ambil pusing apa yg sy tulis.baca sendiri his blog and nilai sendiri. sy rasa dia blh jadi pemikir islam terkemuka sebab nampaknya dia ini suka sgt berfikir.fikir dlm2.
ok sekrang kita masuk bab sy plak. sy ini suka bercakap,so sekarang sy nak senyap. sebab sy rase dah byk sgt hati2 org yang sy lukai dan byk sgt perkara2 yang sgt yg sy sebut meng'annoyed'kan ppl around me. selalu jump into argument w/o thinking its consequences. teman sy berkata'ckplah sesuka hati, just bear in mind, jgn emotional. please be rational. if rasa apa ynag nak dickpkan itu dtg dr emosi,better senyap je.' bagus juga nasihat dia. ok, sy akan berhati-hati selepas ini.
tapi, nak kongsi ttg berfikir guna emosi dan berckp guna emosi ini. beberapa hari lepas, ade la seorg ex-flatmate sy tegur kata my music is too loud n dia minta perlahankan. sy pun naik marah la, coz depan saya tu,ada 2 org tgh bersembang dengan kuatnya,dlm bahasa mereka, dan ada seorg mamat lagi,tgh ckp dgn phone dgn selambanya-dlm bahasa yg tak difahami. dan saya ini, duduk punyalah jauh dengan dia,pakai headphone,which was under my scarf.apalah yang bising sgt.n for God sake, sy dgr nasyid ok-bukan music rock mcm the rasmus ke apa. tetiba sy sedar, kenapalah sy marah sgt. adakah sebab dia tu gay/bi or mmg sy marah sebab tindakan dia yg x rasional itu. sy fikir2 if dia tu straight dan saya x kenal pun, adakah sy akan marah?hurm...sy ni discriminate ppl ke? logic je sy tak suka dia personally,but, taken into account who he is, sy bertindak kurang waras sket.maybe sy takkan marah sgt if dia tu org biasa2 saja. my frens said dia saja nak tegur coz sy x layan dia. hah!x perlu kot... nak bercakap ngan saya? atas dasar dia penah jadi flatmate sy? hurm.. xperlu, x perlu...apa2 pun sy nilai balik lepas tu. jgn judge org macam tu. mana tahu esok lusa dia jadi muslim yang baik.kita tak tahu baik buruk org in the end.sila ingat hadis 4,siti! ttg sufiah juga, semua org kena ingat, kita sebagai muslim x baik menyebarkan aib org.we never know someday,kita pun akan buat slh,dan harap org betulkan kita instead spread the news ttg kesalahan kita. so, ingat tu kawan-kawan, Allah nilai kita dari segi ketaqwaan bukan dengan banyaknya amalan yang kita lakukan. ikhlas-itu yang paling penting.
dan satu lagi,sorry blog,entri kali ni pjg sket. my fren dah clash n she's happy now. sy happy jugak utk dia. sy bukan happy sebab dia clash, dan sy bukan happy sebab dia happy, sy happy coz dia dah jumpa perkara yang lebih penting dari itu semua. dia dah ada prinsip dan dah ada satu paradigma baru dlm hidup dia. malah, da sudah meletakkan prioriti yang sy rasakan sgt berani dlm menjalani hidupnya sehari-hari. sy doakan dia istiqamah. be in the r/s mmg indah-wlpn sy x penah rase.tapi, sy amati, if x best,takde la semua org nak in the r/s kan? cinta itu indah n sy x salahkan cinta. cuma, sy rasakan dlm hidup kita ada sesuatu yang lebih indah dan lebih bermakna- keimanan pada Allah. best nya hanya org yang merasainya boleh nilai sendiri. x percaya? sila cuba sendiri.x tahu mcm mana? cuba tanya kwn2,sahabat handai dan org2 yang kalian rase blh bantu.buku2 pun byk. if ade islamic soc-silalah sertai-byk benefit drnya. kalu ada khutbah jumaat kat tmpt anda,silalah dgr.best tau... kat malaysia tak dpt coz masjid penuh sgt nagn org lelaki...
if xde kat tmpt anda,meh dtg warwick yg indah permai nih. solat jumaat start kul 1.20pm. dtg la awal sket utk bertemu sisters yg superduper best kat cni. if brothers-blh la jumpa brothers. diorg pun best jugak kot.sekarang jadikan prayer hall for everythng,termasuk untuk riadhah-main long jump and kriket. sy personally x setuju-but, i thnk they have their own reason for that. nak msk kena ada card,but blh je ketuk2 then,org akan let u in. enuf promoting our prayer hall. cop,ada library yang best gak.byk buka2 arab yg x leh nak baca coz x reti nak baca bahasa arab.rugi kan? selalu duduk2 sambil baca riyadhus salihin suatu ketika dulu, masa tidak sibuk.harap boleh buat lagi next time.maybe after exam. haaa... nostalgic...
tetiba ingat nadiah-nape dia ni significant sgt dlm hidup sy-coz mase sy mula2 smpi warwick,sy terpisah ngan rakan2 bank yg lain. ale,ale jumpe nadiah.masa tu sy ni punyalah teruk coz x bawak compass dan x pakai jam(sy mmg x suka pakai jam).biasa refer to my hp which mase tu x bwk juga. great,how em gonna pray? tgk2 cuaca kat luar seperti sy buat kat malaysia,tgk matahari nak tahu kiblat,great,ini kat uk lah. n mase tu autumn season.mane la ade matahari sgt.then, ijtihad hati. alhamdulillah the nx day,jumpa nadiah.so,dialah teman smpi ke hari ini. hang out dgn dia and other bruneians. kenal bruneians dulu b4 malaysians. gi notts mase first week pun ngan nad ke rumah atul. sekarang dah x inagt dah mane tmpt yg dilawati mase dtg ke notts lepas2 tu.mcm 2 diff world je.but, after all it was a great experience. even tho,smpi skrg still xde jam tangan lagi.dan dia buat sociology-sy suka sgt sociology tapi x suka exam dia. double cdt napa sy selalu mention nama dia.
last sekali,semalam sy minta marjan cerita sket psl fizik lepas lama x sembang psl fizik. ada 3 alat menarik utk tahu sakit kat mana w/o bedah- melalui x-tray, ct scan n satu lagi x ingat nama dia.but,plg cool lah antara byk2 tu. doc akan masukkan radioactive ke dlm salur darah or salur limfa, then , check melalui computer. ada screening kat our body utk tahu apa yg goes wrong. so cool!!! n marjan kata bahaya dia samalah probability nak accident kat jln raya i.e tak le bahaya sgt. menarik kan? but, of course le mahal. satu lagi ttg invisible cloth-dah capai satu tahap boleh tembusi infra red.she said if boleh tembusi vsisible light,then, berjayalah project tu. won't it be so cool? i hope i can have one sebab best lah jd invisible.teruatama di kala tak mahu jumpa orang-serabutlah. what i can do now is x pakai spec, so i cant see ppl face,hehehe,tak le serabut sgt jadinya. blh jalan menonong je.
ok,i better stop now. sorry panjang sgt,siti. nak lepas semua spy x perlu tulis2 lagi.
cop satu lagi...
enuf siti
saya rindu abah...
sangat2
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