so much to say...so little time we have

i just watch the petronas ad...really touching...kind of true..kita mungkin lupa jasa ibu bapa kita satu hari nnt...it kind of sad bila dah rase semua ni kan...bia abah sakit n bila ijah xde kat umah...eventho if i were there..there's nothing much i can do...nasib baik mak still strong utk uruskan abah...bila jadi perkara2 mcm ni..kita tak tahu kat mane kita nak luahkan rase sedih kecuali Allah...n last2 we will try to forget it...i noe how it feel to be at home...in this kind of situation...when i am here-it seem dat i can forget evrythng n focus on study-mcm boleh je..ya...actually boleh...dan tersangat boleh...anak yg teruk kan?..tapi,dlm hidup kena kena buat pilihan..we have to make a choice...n it alwiz turn to be the bad one..but,after all kita dah cuba yg terbaik kan?...i seriously think dat blogging won't give me any benefit..but,dis the only way to express everythng dat i feel..i noe dat no 1 will read dis...n even if anyone suddenly open dis blog n try to read it...it pointless..no one know me..n who want to read sumthng too personal...like john mekas in his film...who want to watch his life for 4 hrs?..people won't appreciate sumthng which is not related to them...dat's why i keep on blogging...satu lagi isu yg mengganggu benak fikiran..kenapa lah org2 cantik,bijak dan kaya ni still rasa inferior lagi...kamon la..u've everythng in life ..nak ape lagi...kenapa lah nak sedih2..n x mungkin la x sedar diri sendiri tu lawa..ish2...kalau cam aku ni mmg sah2 xde org kate lawa..baik tu ade la kot..tapi,x kesah pun...x le pandai p0n..ni kesah la gak..sejak dtg sini terasa la mcm ade pandir2 sket...tp,normal la...semua org ade kelebihan masing2...penting gak nak pelihara hubungan...n dlm benda2 relationship mmg kena ada pengorbanan ..susah kan?...mcm ayat impian illyana je...ok lah ..kepada peminat2 yg aku minati di luar sana ...teruskan impian anda...dan sedarlah diri anda tu cantik!!!